Special Students

•March 1, 2011 • Leave a Comment

It is seven and I have just gotten home. I ate Ak-Mak and hummus, which I had stored for this occasion since, due to renovations in the kitchen, I cannot cook. I made a salad and I am drinking a glass of wine. I have just realized I am missing one of the films in the art series the university is giving, a film I really wanted to see. I could still go, and perhaps I will, but I am tired and disoriented and although I remembered it in the morning, I had forgotten until this moment.

The reason for this is special students. In one class, dealing with discipline – confiscating cell phones, sending students out into the hall, insisting they speak to the department chair and the Dean of Students, was truly exhausting. I and some other students are particularly afraid of one student who does not seem particularly balanced.

In the next class, we sat in a circle so that the one most dominant student, cannot place herself in the middle and interrupt so visibly. She moved her chair so as to sit by me and kept tapping me on the shoulder when she felt attention was going to another speaker.

This student was the only one who could not write her paper. I have suggested to her repeatedly, verbally and also in writing, that she be evaluated for ADD and get treatment for anxiety. She out shouts me, saying that she should have alternative assignments since she does not miss class and she does “participate.”

All of these students have major educational and mental health problems. I have been repeatedly told we must be understanding and helpful to those who have not had the opportunities in life we have had. They are the customers, and we are to serve them well.

I do not think this is in any way right.



Video Biografía de José Carlos Mariátegui

•May 30, 2007 • Leave a Comment

This is an interesting video biography, in Spanish, of the great Peruvian thinker José Carlos Mariátegui. And this site, remember, is mainly a backup for my old site on Blogger. My current site is Professor Zero on WordPress, where I also maintain my auxiliary research site. The post most recently added to this archive was Hey Pocky A-Way.


The Revolution Will Not Be Televised

•May 19, 2007 • Leave a Comment

This is a great documentary, and uplifting. There is more information on Chávez: Inside the Coup/The Revolution Will Not Be Televised and its contexts at the film website.


Seminario Permanente

•May 13, 2007 • Leave a Comment

This blog grows backward, not forward in time, as it is the backup for my first Professor Zero site, on Blogger. Professor Zero is still current on WordPress. The post most recently added to Z Blackground was Signs and Symptoms.

I also have a new and different blog, Seminario Permanente de Teoría y Crítica, for aficionados of literary criticism and theory. Despite the title, it is primarily in English. I would be delighted to receive comments on it, including comments on the header image.


Pleine Marge

•May 12, 2007 • Leave a Comment

My journal recommendation for today is Pleine Marge, with modern poetry and art. It is beautiful, unusual, and classy, and I like it.


Body Modification, Self-Fashioning

•February 12, 2007 • Leave a Comment

My ceramics class had its first midterm-like event today. This involved showing our work in progress and discussing it, both technically and thematically. Conversation turned to body modification and its relationship to self-fashioning.

My own body modifies itself automatically. Right now it is traveling backwards in time due to all the lifting, jumping, and throwing of heavy objects in which we engage at the studio. My work on modification and self-fashioning takes place in that much-maligned locus I rebelliously like, the mind. The Shadow may have lifted, but I am still boiling down the erroneous principles I learned in Reeducation, so that I can banish them when they flash up.

Reeducation is designed to modify its subjects, and its objects. That is, after all, why one goes. But one of the most interesting sentences I read when I did some research on the nature of abuse, was that one of its principal effects was to modify, and not merely coerce its victims. I ought to have known this, since it is common knowledge that modification is a principal objective of torture, but when I read that sentence, it seemed new. In Reeducation, I expected to be modified. It was fashionable at the time to say that this modification would be uncomfortable. So despite a certain unease, I allowed a negative modification to continue unidentified.

Reeducation had many principles and sentences, which I have tried at various points in these pages to decode. I now discern that the most basic sentence was Doubt yourself and mistrust your environment. This sentence is the One Ring which rules them all, and binds them together in the land of shadows.

If you mistrust your environment in a global way, you have fear. But if you trust yourself, you will know whom, or what to mistrust. That, of course, is why the ancients emphasized self-knowledge. This weblog is a great spell I have cast to get mine back.


Z Blackground

•January 9, 2007 • Leave a Comment

This is Z Blackground, the WordPress backup of Professor Zero’s original blog, on Blogger (18 February-26 November 2006).

The current PZ blog has been on WordPress since 16 September 2006. As there is at this time no import utility to WordPress I know of for the new Blogger, I will move posts from the old blog to this archive site one by one, as I have time. Comments, links, and other ephemera will remain on the old site. Once again, Professor Zero’s writing from September, 2006, to the present is at http://profacero.wordpress.com.

The font size on this template is irritatingly small. To increase it, please go to the “view” tab at the top of your browser. In the drop down menu, choose “font size” and then “increase.”